Liquid Diet – First Week
This liquid diet – I wasn’t sure how I’d feel…would I be hungry? Would I feel satisfied? Would I miss chewing?
I’m pleasantly surprised that it’s actually been quite easy to transition. I like not always thinking about food. I love not having to figure out what to eat, and not having to watch my portions. It’s allowing me to just see food as fuel. This is something that’s been a struggle for me for years.
I’m grateful to find a doctor to work with, and feel like I may have a shot at losing some of this excess weight. My knees, my back, my body – it’s screaming for help, and I’m finally feeling hopeful again.
It would appear I’m down about 6 pounds this week. With reduced calories – it happens. I’ve reduced my calories before, but not this much…is this what it takes? I expect the weight loss to slow down at this point to about 1-3 pounds a week. If it’s more great, if it’s less, that’s okay too. I just need weight to come off…I’m at that point that I need this.
I need this for my emotional health. I need this for my physical health. I am hopeful that I can at least get some of this weight off….I haven’t felt hopeful in ages.
I’m trying to take note of feelings, changes, and make this a learning experience as I go. What I notice the most is that I don’t think about food all day. It’s not an obsession…it’s almost like it’s a non-issue. Imagine that. I wonder if that’s how other people are? I’ve been this way for so long now, I don’t know what I used to be like.
I remember obsessing about food when I was young too…At age 16, my first job at Woolworth’s, there was a sale on this one brand of candy bar, something like 10cents each. I bought 10 of them and ate them all….because I could. I look back at my appetite at 10, and eating way too much – always wanting more, always wanting bigger portions. I was at a healthy weight, but the addiction was built in me from very young.
One day at a time…and now one week at a time. If I learn from the process, that’s fabulous…I’ve been on the path to food recovery for years, and now hopefully I’ll shed some of the shame of this weight that weighs me down with embarrassment and pain.
